Saturday, September 13, 2008 @ 9:31 PM

sian.
thats the in word now, okay. just kidding.
recently, nothing much happened, really.

thursday, practiced more flips after swimming 30laps.
30laps kinda sucks for me now, idk why X:
plus it dint end off very well,
coach was pissed off again and me and joanne had to stay back yeah, to communicate.

oh yeah, got back progress report.
hm, not much feelings about my results,
dont know to feel happy or sad.
but obviously im very unhappy about my physics results, tyvm.
and some comments were obviously copied and pasted,
like the same lines appear in every report slip,
just that they changed the name. hah.

had langarts test on friday,
totally screwed man.
didnt have time to really write down properly,
cause i think for too long.
well, thats cause im noob.
if i can pass i will totally smile until my mouth cant close.

today morning was supposed to have trng,
raining heavily, dint go.
cant make it for makeup,
did makeup with dad.
ran to somewhr near cck, turned back to gombak stadium.
surprising, i saw hilda! no wonder her shirt looked familiar. (orientation?)
the sky was pretty nice btw.
okay, and i was feeling lame so i attempted to try running 800m to see my timing,
since i've not run that dist for ages.
and the timing is so.. erherms, i shant post it.

okay, there's physics test on wednesday and la oral presentation on wed,
plus cid oral presentation on thurs.
school life is so great!
tests after exams, exams after tests.
when do we ever get a serious break?
holidays? hah, holidays are for doing hol hw, yo .
if i have a talent (which i dont) ,
i will just quit school and and do something else.
too bad i cant.

what have i been doing?
hiding my true feelings,
pretending to be what im not,
im not happy, i know.
but i dont want to let anyone know,
i thought i could handle, yeah?
how long have i been doing this?
so long, ive forgotten how to count.
i thought time would heal everything,
everything will be fine soon.
but tdy, that msg really got me very depressed.
i cant eat my lunch, i was staring at space.
maybe im thinking too much,
maybe its just a simple and innocent msg, or whatever.
is thr an underlying msg, or am i rly thinking too deep?
maybe, i should act like i dont know anything to keep myself happy yeah?
but i just cant deceive myself.
im sick and tired of waiting.
i just want all this to end.

just when will you stop doing all these?

p.s. i know ppl must be thinking why i keep changing skin.
let me tell you, its for fun :D